| [Mar. 14th, 2007|08:25 pm] |
Everyone has drama in their lives whether they choose to deal with it or not. So, what's new? The trick is just to press on and get it over with. I had to remember that when I had some tough spots with a couple of friends of mine. If I'd chosen not to talk to them about whatever bothered me for whatever reason, there would have been more resentment and more drama than there ever was to begin with. The other thing I had to realize is that when dealing with others, it wasn't always about what I thought they should know or realize. In other words, I not only had to do some talking, but I also had to do some listening. In the end, we reached understanding, and the drama is gone.
Mark, the truth is that we have five more months of sharing an apartment. Frankly I'd rather put this behind us so we can get on in our lives both separately and as friends.It's very clear to me that we both have different ideas, different ways of thinking, different experiences, and different paths. Neither is more important or better than the other. They just are. So long as we're secure and happy in our lives, it really doesn't matter what the other thinks. But what does matter is that we're not getting anywhere, and we're just building up more crap by avoiding the real issue. I would have rathered a verbal fist fight as opposed to all of this stuff on the internet because we would have just gotten it out, dealt with it, maybe be mad for a few days, and then be done. But now that the cat's out and deeds have been done, we gotta figure something out because I'm sick of this isolation and separation nonsense. That's not to say that I think you should spend every waking hour in my company. That isn't the case. You've got stuff to do, andso do I. But when I haven't talked to you for more than four hours (including NFB meetings) max, I think there's a problem, especially when I see the evidence all over the internet.
I never said that I don't think you should do your business, or that you'll fail in your business. In fact, even though it's not for me, I think that if it makes you happy and feel successful, go for it. I'm behind you one hundred percent. It just sucks that I'm getting pissed on as you go up your success latter, and that was my real issue to begin with. From what I'd read, it seemed as though you'd made the decision to consider me negative and unsuccessful, and so you didn't want to hang with me. That's fine. I understand that. but the reality is that I am successful, and I am on my way to bigger and better things. I'm going to school, I'm working on getting a job this summer (which I have a new prospect), I'm doing some Pre-Paid Legal with the understanding that I'm not terribly interested in making it my life's ambition, and I'm doing a heck of a lot with the NFB and getting recognized for my work.
As I see it, the real issue is that you're frustrated with life as it is. I certainly don't blame you. If I were in your shoes, I would be, too. However, I feel as though your frustrations have been taken out on me, and I really don't appreciate it, especially when it's done as an open attack on the internet. I'm sorry if I pissed you off in some way, and it's your responsibility to let me know in an appropriate forum when this happens so as to avoid a lot of what's been going on.
So instead of sticking our noses up in the air, lets just get this crap done with! |
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