| Distancing continued... |
[Mar. 7th, 2007|07:31 pm] |
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First off, my apologies on the heavy nature of part 1 of this deal. I'd like to say that I absolutely can't stand the scatter brained/ shot gun approach used in part 1. I've had all day to mentally chew on this and upon rereading part one, don't feel that I said anything that I wouldn't truly have said anyway. I don't like having to cram a bunch of thought into a short amount of time and space. Please bear with me as I may repeat some of the things I'd mentioned in part one. Not to be redundant or annoying, but because I'll be in a flow and rhythm.
So, first off, I can appreciate your being there for me, but how am I supposed to read that? I mean truly? I'm on my way to a permanent better space in life, why on earth would I regress? I have raised the bar on life for myself, why are you wishing I'd lower it? I'm comfortable with pushing myself for bigger and better. Does this scare or offend you? Good, maybe you should seek to raise the bar in your own life, stop leaning on everyone else at the sports pub to buy your drinks, sport your birthdays and Christmases, and just plain up grade your station in life. There is no caste system in place here, you aren't a poor waif who is incapable, or at least not according to the philosophy coming out of your mouth. Now are the philosophical ideas you are saying lies, or real? Why aren't you show casing them?
So, you WANT to try and be my equal... O.K. here it is:
1.Build YOUR chapter, that's all on you. I don't mean one new person every 9 months (HUGE YAWN!!!!)
2. Are you talking to 10 strangers every day about your business? No? Oh.
3. Get a job... not minimum wage, but a real job. I'm sorry, but I don't think you can hack an 8 hour job let alone an 8 hour a day job AND a 12 hour a day job, AND build a business ALL AT THE SAME TIME! All I'm saying, is can you even muster the strength to do 1 third of that? No again...hmmm. I'm not asking you to be superman, man!
4. I don't have any more than those 3, but you gotta get somewhere in the near by universe to at least come close, and you don't... I'm sorry, that's your choice.
Oh, 4 will be 4.5. Start Doing something instead of a ton 'o nothing. Talk gets old fast... real fast. There's a lot of talk about 'ambition', and why this is this, and that is that... how about DO SOMETHING? I still am earnest about hearing all about your definition of ambition, cuz, you see my skepticism lies in the fact that I have NEVER, EVER heard of an ambitious person who wouldn't get a job, wouldn't build a business, would call in sick to work/ school when ever the urge hit them, slept in until 3 in the afternoon, was more into going to the pub than enriching the lives of people around them. So, again I ask, WHERE'S THE AMBITION????????
It has been stated to me that you have already learned ALL of your life lessons. I have to ponder (albeit, on a shallow level) on this, because if that were true and a real deal, 1. You have no Earthly right ore reason to be taking up space on this level of existence, or 2. People should be coming in droves on a daily basis to bask in your wealth of wisdom and knowledge, or 3. You should've been contacted, for certain by now, to be the next Dali Lamma. Why are none of these 3 things true? If ya can't get an invite to Thanx-bloody-giving, or to a Merry Friggin' XMAS/ NEW YEAR, then WTF??????? That does not resound of huge ass enlightenment to me... sorry, but it's 100% unanimous amongst all of the other 100% of wrong people that I've ask this of. So, the whole world is wrong... hmmm my, how strange.
Look, I don't want this to be a slam fest, but for God sakes, the conviction expressed that you do have all of the answers has bound me from being frank with you about this stuff. After all, the statement that age has nothing to do with maturity also has me at bay... how can I share even the most minute ideal to chew upon with such an enlightened and mature person who in all of their infinite wisdom puts me to shame? I consider myself wise to some degree, not even CLOSE to having learned my life lessons, and I'm still waiting for even the slightest trickle of anybody to come knocking at my door. But, i'll tell ya what... when it comes to work, I get special assignments and preferential treatment, cuz I strive to be good at what I do. In business, I'm respected and looked up to, because I say nothing and do what needs to be done. Amongst my peers, I'm looked up to and do get asked my insight and opinions on things... I SOOOOOO HAVE NOT ARRIVED!!!! NOT!
While I'm being candid, I need to say this, as it has been a severe wedge in our relationship that you have no idea has been ruminating and festering for quite a long while... 2 things actually. 1. I wish you could just relax, and not have to be 'the man'. Like with the magazine sales guy... if you could just say 'O.K. Mark, you've dealt with this situation before', but instead, its 'screw you (Mark, male, guy, man...)' and off you go doing the 'I'm the man' thing. 2. It really bothered me that again, being the man you basically gave Randy, Tom and me the huge middle finger, cuz the AWESOME wisdom on that one was "We'll work this from 2 different angles". Well, you haven't worked yours at all, and when I mention employing powerful techniques for business, boy you just had to shoot them down with your vastly superior knowledge of business and work. Randy kinda shrugged your leaving off, you didn't, haven't and won't buy anything from my or Tom's business, yet you are asking me to buy from yours... go figure. Anyway, yea, Tom a bit and myself a bit were both extremely disappointed in you and in how all of that was gone about. We were TOLD, GIVEN THE IMPRESSION, ETC., ETC., that you were gunna change the world and blow all of our hair back... what happened? Couldn't get a free web site and having to buy product not appealing enough? You looked at what we've got, we weren't about to hand a website over to you, Kyle did, you've done nothing with THAT website, you are a billion miles from any form of business support and the best advice you've gotten was a mimic of what Tom said initially 'Get people in front of me', but instead, all you've got is a DVD to show people. No in the flesh successes... now that's severe wisdom! I AM F**KIN' IMPRESSED! People need/ want energy drinks, vitamin supplements, make up, books, games, electronics, etc., etc., etc., things that they can feel and love owning... I couldn't 'love' a sight unseen/ felt purchase... sorry, that's the nature of human beings. Pre - Paid is a fine service, but frankly, people want substance... touch it, feel it, taste it. I'm truly sorry that you've disqualified your self (due to being uncoachable, and not taking heed to successful people) from being eligible to be a partner not just in Quixtar, but in any other projects in the future. I wouldn't dare after getting the middle finger of business from you, ask you to join me only to get 'My better idea is...' and 'I'm working with so and so over here, a billion, jillion miles away, cuz I'm so G*D- D**NED Enlightened!' O.K., fine, you go consult your business expert on how to do YOUR THING, cuz you told me to my face that you are too good for my team... I'm glad your team is so tried and true. I know mine is... and because I'm on a winning make things happen, success coming my way team, I should lower my standards and the bar that I've established for my self????????? How about PISS UP A ROPE?! Not gunna happen! You shoulda thought about all of this before employing that amazing, astronomically awesome, above and beyond insight, knowledge and wisdom.
I really don't have much more to say... I'm not crying over your departure or at your choice to stay low on the rungs of life's ladder, and not raise your bar or strive to be more than what the average/ common person thinks about people with blindness, or what not, after all, YOU ARE PROVING THEM RIGHT... how sad. That really does suck! To have such awesome philosophy and yet choose to be a ward to the state and not kick the ever lovein' crap out of the impoverished station in life?! Like I said, there ain't no caste system in place here. I'm not Shooting for less in life, and life will give you what you 'demand' of it and work for... |
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