| Distancing... |
[Mar. 7th, 2007|07:24 am] |
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It was and is not really surprise who the person is/was who sent the reply on my distancing. Unfortunately, they (once again) missed the point that instead of pointing the gun straight at them, I made my response as wide open as possible, so I guess I will need to be more direct about my distancig.
The point about success, IS NOT MONEY... because of the blindsided, lack of ability to understand that this is not my measuring stick, I will bluntly say, that success is foreming a chapter that grows each month, not regresses down to 5 people. Lack of growth for 9 months is boring... it equals stagnant, cest pool. I feel trapped in an organization going NOWHERE FAST. Ever hear the saying 'Time is money?', well, time is money and my time is becoming very valuable, people are waiting and depending on me to show them how to get out of the fiunancial hurt that they are in. I can't just throw my time to the wind.
Also, I DO NOT get 3 day weekends in which to go to the bar and have others buy me alcohol, while I'm living on government funding, and have a business that I could be SUCCESSFUL at, but refuse to do anything with. I have a job, a business and several timely hobbies... in short, I don't have hugr amounts of open time to splurge.
Let me touch on that one. Superbowl weekend, the person who I'm distancing from had just returned from a week in Washington, D.C., had all weekend and then some. I had 3 hours after the Super bowl before I had to go to bed. First off, because I was involved with a movie that I was wanting to see, and NOT wishing to have an ear yaked off, this person decides that that would be the time to clean house... I didn't have the time to waste on that one! Then at a meeting following that, this person tries to shame me and bolster their own ego in a conversation about the Chinese New Year. That tactic only works if one even CARES what others in the room think... I didn't, and don't. And as for ambitious, since you'd said you so are... how? Can you please describe ambitious? Is it ambitious to see how many beers someone will buy you? Is it ambitious in 0 growth in your chapter? Is there ANY ambition in business WHAT SO EVER? Where is the ambition? i CAN't see it and I AM asking for help on this one. No, I can't go with just words any more, I do believe talk is cheap! Do something, and say NOTHING!
I've got to go to work and I don't even have time to do spell check.
Is ambition applying JUST at Curves? I knew that that probably wasn't gunna happen, I know Bellingham economy... was I supposed to be impressed 'Oh, I'm applying at only one minimum wage job, aren't you prowd? Wish me luck'. Like ya, prowd of 1 job app, or staying in the same position. It has urked me that I've been told that you consider your self my equal, and that you WON'T gwet a job, yet you fancy yourself as being able to work as I do... please just do it and stop saying you can. I love NFB philosophy, but it's all philosophical here... all in YOUR head, please prove me wrong and realy get an ambition and do something! This is all why I fgeel the need to distance... too much talk and not enough back up of that talk.
You're a good friend , but too little action on your part, can you do instead of say?
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